At the beginning of this year I made a decision that I would explore all my talents, it’s a decision not a new year’s resolution, I am not quiet certain if they fit under the same category. Lately I have been feeling discouraged because I felt like some of the work I was producing was not good enough, have you ever had that feeling? Like something you are making is just not good enough and you don’t quite know how to fix it? It is such a draining and frustrating feeling. I wrote a song, I went into the studio, sang it, we worked on the beat but I was not happy with the final product and I could not figure out how to make it sound right. For days I walked around with a heavy cloud over my head  because of this one song that was weighing so heavily on me, it made me wonder if I had any musical talent, or if I had any talent at all. I sat alone for hours just going over my life choices and I remembered how someone once spoke to me about purpose and how we all have a purpose in life. I have always seen myself as an artist, from a very young age I knew I wanted to be an artist but what if that is not my purpose in life? We are all apparently here on earth for a purpose and I wonder at what point does one discover what their purpose is, does it come in a dream? Is there a little voice that just whispers to them what their purpose is? I wondered if there is anyone out there who has concrete proof that something came to them and told them what their purpose is.  I listened to the song again and I thought about purpose...the purpose of the song, the lyrical content, it was empty, meaningless, it didn’t have the potential to touch anyone that listened to it, it had no purpose. I made a promise to myself that with all the art I put out this year as I embark on a journey of exploring all my talents I must remember that each piece of art I choose to share with people  must have a purpose.

 

xoxo